I’m not going to lie, the past four years have been incredibly challenging through a spiritual and kundalini awakening, while also bringing so many lessons and personal growth. While I intended 2019 be the year I begin to THRIVE, the universe as usual had a unique way to get me there.
After my Father passed away in January, I was pulled into a vortex of grief not only for my father, but also for who I thought my family was. While in that vortex, I experienced a new level of awareness to the dysfunction in my family and went to the depths of my shadows – for months. While in the Dark Knight of the Soul, I witnessed a deeper level than ever before and felt the collective unconscious in more ways than one.
On a positive note, for a majority of 2019 a lot of karma was cleared from my life, learned to speak up even when I was nervous and no longer accepted behaviours I don’t deserve. Clearly steps needed to thrive! While I don’t think I particularly achieved the goal of thriving in 2019, I do feel the year ended on a platform to do so in 2020.
Last night while my oldest son was settling in for bed, we had a good conversation about speaking the truth. This isn’t the first time we’ve talked about this but more of a reminder to share our own truth, even when it feels uncomfortable. He admitted he was worried about how the other person would react if he did so, and my response was that most people feel the same way but the other person’s reaction isn’t our responsibility. It’s important to honour ourselves and speak the truth anyway. They might surprise us and react differently and could lead to a better understanding, and understanding is so much better than guessing what someone is thinking.
After this conversation, I was reminded how important it is for all of us to share our truth. Whenever I have in the past no matter how scary it was, not only did I feel better but it helped the other person too.
It was this conversation that helped me declare, 2020 will be the year of TRUTH.